Well I think I am at on of my lower points in life. I am married and have the best little one year old. I love them very much and would do anything for them. I have so many thoughs and feelings that I do not know where to begin. I hope one day others will be able to read this blog and we can related. We can grow together to FIX ME. I find it really hard to talk to my husband. I try and try but just do not get what I need. I have never felt depression or even thought about it. For the first time tonight I feel I am possible feeling a little depressed.

We leave in a tiny tiny house. Because our house is so small it seams like I have to go to 10 more effort to maintain the house if we could just move into our own place

I have gained like 40 pounds since we have been married and we celebrated our 3rd year anniversary in November. I know I need to lose the weight but when it comes down to it I just can not find the strength or desire.

I love my baby boy Gavin, but I do not feel like I am being the best mom. I can not find the ump to do the things that I like.

I hope to get this blog updated on my thoughts and challenges that I am going though. I would not hope that anyone is feeling the way that I do, and if you are I hope that you can learn from my experience and overcome the changes.